technically, i didn't do anything yesterday for halloween. on the 30th though me and my friends went out of town to see a drag show and rocky horror picture show showing at a bar. i've only ever been to one drag show prior to that so I did forget how the drag queens actually get all up on you. i mean thankfully i think maybe the drag queen knew i was wearing a full face of makeup so she only kind of shoved my face into her. we also got pizza
we ended up crashing at my friend's apartment. all 4 of us. one bed. someone slept on the floor though because he fell off of the bed. in the morning when we woke up we agreed on ihop. to my guy friend while we were outside of the ihop smoking, i was like, maybe we should live here. although my friend who we were visiting had talked about how the town is nervous about being gentrified. btw i hate people who when i meet them they ask me, are you from here? fuck na im a transplant. i live in a major city but im not from here. i guess its not like i had a choice, i moved with my family when i was 13. but its like why do you even care. i know its not typically a malicious question though. anyway im not trying to gentrify this city my friend lives in but it was sort of a fresh breath of air so i thought about it. it seems that living in one of the small cities/towns surrounding the city i live in would be cheaper than living in the city itself because there are even more transplants than when i came here.
when i got home i just took a bath and then played on my 3ds emu more. i rlly need to work on this fic but i keep getting side tracked, i was like what if i read blood meridian will it make my understanding of bad people more interesting. Like imagine. take just a moment to imagine. reading good well liked books like Blood Meridian with the sole intent of weaponizing the knowledge you gain to write homestuck fanfiction. i have two other fanfiction writing friends and they both write kpop demon hunter 'polytrix' stuff. i would say that maybe that's arguably better to be able to tell people about. everyone knows that i write homestuck fanfiction and i have this blog linked on my discord cuz its kind of like a homonculus im growing in a jar and im emotionally attached to it and i need everyone to see it. but dont ASK me, hey, what are you reading. what's the ship. I DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT ITTTTT except I clearly do and i clearly will.
I have always had a weird aversion to telling people about things I put a lot of care into. it is not exclusive to my gamtav fics or even when I used to have ocs I put a shit ton of energy into when I was a teenager, it's just hard for me; I think this is a habit that started when I was way younger. Most of the time my hobbies were a private thing for me growing up bc i Isolated myself for like 14 hours everyday and everything I made esp when i was in middle school were very intimately just projections of my mind. so now that i do have a lot of friends im like they can't know that I put love into anything. i am not particularly afraid of them knowing im even weirder than they think I am because we just all have different associations with all of the evil fandoms that people wont touch with a 8 foot pole
we also watched the hazbin hotel season 2 episodes 1 & 2 yesterday. i am not incredibly into hazbin hotel + we are legitimately forbode from discussing it in certain configurations of people, but i am a neurodivergent gen z blue hair and pronouns, I already said I was gonna be SEATED no matter how much shit i talk. also i believe that hazbin hotel was very crucial to this renaissance of indie animation happening rn because artists aren't afraid to put weird pitches out there anymore and that has produced some beautiful results like glitch productions. i am glad they are changing vaggies name to something else because i always liked her but her name is uniquely terrible enough that I didn't like her. i do think that maybe vivziepop should have just made a show about heaven because the environment is awesome plus lute got to have this serious emo girl moment that wouldn't be as cool if she happened to be in hell. also THE SPEAKER OF GOD. I LOVED HER............
anyway i make these posts on my laptop and this blog is kind of ugly on desktop but i still don't know how to make websites that surpass the bare minimum level of skill necessary that it takes to make a carrd page. i am sure i will make renovations soon but its not a priority.