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i just finished writing the update for my chapter 4 progress report or whatever and i couldnt keep coming up with stuff to say because my inherent need to bitch began to grow out of my control.

a lot of most of whats been on my mind that i have not yet understood how to post about without just oversharing is that i am unhappy with the state of affairs in my life. i am almost always in a fight with this guy and that is genuinely part of the reason i even have this venue of self expression. i don't feel like i can talk to anyone. i make the most progress in my writing when im pissed about something, because you can't write without locking in. it's no wonder that i wrote chapter 4 so fast.

I feel like an angel who regularly re-tapes her own wings. i need to evolve from this

i get really mad, but ultimately, im so mad over the stupidest shit, and i could be so much more above it all, the path is already made clear to me. but im a hog at heart.. i will roll in the mud and squeal.

anyway to balance it out me and my friend watched some dr stone today. i really think its interesting and i havent been into anime in the past half of a decade. Like i rewatched toradora a couple times this year because i love it so much but literally thats it. any other anime i have watched prior to dr stone is absolutely nothing like dr stone. another fave is land of the lustrous. i still love it SOO much literally an innovative story that you would never think of

im getting to the point of writing this where im crossfaded nd i need to lay down